From the recording I Still Believe In Me
This song was the turning point in my life and music career. Probably the most honest I've written in a very long time. Makes me emotional thinking about the truth, trials and tribulations that eventually became the pure heart of this song. I'm bearing my soul with these lyrics. Haven't been able to play this on guitar without crying half way through...
Lyrics
Daddy didn’t stay long enough for anyone to ever know
What a man that was the head of house - shoulda been for his little girls
Mama held down different jobs while she put herself through English school
Used the key, under the front door mat, I grew up fast, so I could be the glue
I grew up fast…
Dropped out of 9th grade started modeling, to feed my family
While my friend got cars and proms
I was 20 by the time I got my GED
Everything I learned I learned on the streets and in alley ways
Everything I earned, I earned with my bare hands and tenacity
Maybe I didn’t get that far… Maybe I took too long,
Maybe I kept fucking up, wasting time, doing drugs
People say I should give up, learn to live with my mistakes…
BUT I STILL BELIEVE, I CAN MAKE, SOMETHING OF MY SELF
I STILL BELIEVE – I’VE GOT A BETTER LIFE TO LIVE THAN HELL
I STILL BELIEVE I CAN MAKE, SOMETHING OF MY SELF
I STILL BELIEVE IN ME
Got sidetracked trying to make ends meat
Time card’s full of holes I’ve punched
A prisoner of all my regrets, like I'm doing time with a break for lunch
Scraping plates and turning tables, wiping down those tragedies
Holding on to what I’m able, to make sense of what’s left of me
Maybe I didn’t get that far… Maybe I took too long,
Maybe I kept fucking up, wasting time, doing drugs
People say I should just give up, learn to live with my mistakes…
BUT I STILL BELIEVE, I CAN MAKE, SOMETHING OF MY SELF
I STILL BELIEVE – I’VE GOT A BETTER LIFE TO LIVE THAN HELL
I STILL BELIEVE- I CAN MAKE, SOMETHING OF MY SELF
I STILL BELIEVE IN ME